told your mom i’m doing fine,

she said “you always had that shine”

cut my bangs, dyed my soul red

left your texts forever unread

i laughed with friends ‘til half past two

not ‘cause i forgot about you—

just felt better without the weight

of saying “sorry i came too late”

i got a glow-up, got a grip

got receipts and glossy lips

your name? oh, i don’t say it—

except when i accidentally play it...

(leise, geflüstert)

“ugh... still on that playlist.”

i’m sorry—

for nothing really (kinda)

you were a storm, i made it sunny

i’m not bitter, just better

with a touch of maybe

you were the fall, i was the landing

it’s not love, just crash-standing

sry not sorry—

but still kinda.

wore your hoodie as a joke

then cried in it (but no one spoke)

left your necklace on a train

felt like freedom, felt like pain

i talk big, i sing it loud

but whisper truths behind the crowd

said “i’m healed” with smoky eyes

but flinched when someone said your sign

i burnt our pics with glitter flames

made your memory into games

but the winner still feels small—

guess i didn’t win at all

(Hintergrundstimme, melancholisch)

“i’d still answer if you called.”

i’m sorry—

for who i used to be

the girl who cried too quietly

you broke me like a lyric

and now i sing too carefully

i’m shining, yeah, i’m fine and free

but i still shake at 3:03

sry not sorry—

but still kinda.

(gesprochen, fast wie Gedankenstrom)

i don’t miss you

i swear—

i don’t miss you

not the way you said i would

not the way i used to...

but maybe

maybe just a little

on mondays

on bridges

in silence

or in songs i write

just not tonight.

*(Hintergrund: „but still kinda… but still kinda…”)

i got new boots, a better bed

new dreams, no space in my head

i laugh louder, fall less deep

and i finally get some sleep

(gleichzeitig, leise überlagert, verzerrt oder flüsternd)

“still think of you when the moon’s too bright”

“woke up missing your voice... again”

“maybe i’m not as fine as i said”

“but still kinda…”

(letzte Linie – alle Stimmen zusammen, wie ein bittersüßer Chor)

sry not sorry— but still kinda.

what she said when she left 🎀

[Verse 1]

I came home, the lights were off

The kettle cold, your coffee cup

Still standing there like it forgot

You wouldn’t be coming back

A note was taped to the kitchen wall

Folded twice like you thought that’d soften the fall

Said I never asked, never saw you at all

Funny how you never said that out loud

[Pre-Chorus]

I would’ve stayed, I would’ve changed

If I had known you felt that way

But silence sounds like everything’s okay

Until it breaks—

[Chorus]

So maybe I talk too loud

And maybe I missed the signs

But you looked at me like I was enough

You kissed me like I got it right

So don’t tell me now I made you feel small

When you never told me at all

Yeah, maybe I was blind

But you made me think I saw the light

[Verse 2]

I play our song on my guitar

Up on the roof where the stars still are

But they don’t shine the way they did

When you were here, and I was it

Your list of hurt, a silent scream

Each line a cut, a haunting dream

Like I was loving you all wrong

But how could I know, if you just smiled all along?

[Pre-Chorus 2]

I would’ve listened, I would’ve bent

If you had told me what you meant

But now the paper speaks instead

And it says—

[Chorus]

Maybe I talk too loud

And maybe I missed the signs

But you looked at me like I was enough

You kissed me like I got it right

So don’t tell me now I made you feel small

When you never told me at all

Yeah, maybe I was blind

But you made me think I saw the light

[Bridge] (mit Flüstern oder entferntem Telefonfilter)

"You never asked how I was."

"You made everything about you."

"You loved me in the way that hurt most."

– that’s what she said when she left

[Final Chorus]

Maybe I was selfish

Maybe I was wrong

But you looked me in the eyes and told me I was home

Now I’m screaming at the sky

Wishing you'd said goodbye

Not left me with a note

And the ghost of what you felt inside

[Outro – gebrochene Stimme]

And I still play that song

Even if I play it all alone

Your words still echo in my chest

But the roof is quiet…

except for the mess

(Stimme bricht, letzter Ton zieht sich… dann nur noch Schluchzen. Gitarre klingt langsam aus.)

Also ich bin 15 w und ich bin bi (glaube ich ;) ) und da gibt es ein Mädchen in meiner Klasse die sich vor ein paar monaten bei mir geoutet hat und mir gesagt hat dass sie gefühle für mich hat.

Ich war etwas überumpelt und wir haben dann paar wochen nd mehr viel miteinander geredet aber orgendwie ist sie schon cute und so und ja dann hatten wir kurz so ne art "Beziehung" aber es fühlte sich irgendwie komisch an weswegen wir einen Schritt zurrückgingen und jetzt ne Art kennenlernphase haben. Aber ich denke ich fühle nicht wirklich was für sie aber ich bin mir halt auch nicht sicher und sie war eig eine meiner besten Freundinnen aber jetzt fühlt sich alles bissi komisch an und da gibt es aber auch noch ne ander Person die ich etwas im hinterkopf habe. Ich will ihre gefühle nicht verletzen und ihr falsche hoffnungen machen denn ich denke ich habe gefühle für sie aber.. ich weiß es auch nicht was heißt das alles?? :((

Hi,

Bin 15 Jahre alt und snappe zurzeit mit einem Jungen auf den ich halt nen crush habe (kenne ihn persönlich) und bin mir nicht sicher ob er auch einen hat. Er hat mich geaddet und dann haben wir ein wenig gesnappt aber er lässt mich immer so 5h mindestens auf geöffnet aber immer wenn ich ihm snappe öffnet er es meistens bis unter einer minute sogar während dem Unterricht! Und wir sehen uns halt fast nie weil wir nicht wirklichin der nähe wohnen (halt so 20 min entfernung) und auch nicht auf dieselbe Schule gehen. Was heißt das??